Monthly Archives: September 2013

Mirror mirror on the wall….

Boo is known in our circle of family and friends as the feisty one.

Her big brother knows that for an easy life, it is just easier to do what she says.

Her daddy loves her sense of humour and they laugh together all the time.

I see all of this in her (feisty-ness especially) but I see a part of her that is insecure and unsure.

Unsure of herself and her world around her.

She needs routine and she needs to know what is happening as this makes her feel secure.

Starting big girls school and starting a new routine has highlighted this tenfold.

It made me really sad when she was crying before going to school worried about what she was going to have for her dinner.

So like you do when you are concerned as a parent, I looked on Google.

I read an article about how children have no sense of self and look to their parents, mainly their mum for to understand their place in the world.

I am my daughter’s reflection.

I looked back at the past 6 weeks of juggling school holidays and my business. I realised I didn’t like her reflection.

I’m pretty good at beating myself up about not being a good mum but this one has really struck a chord.

If she sees a shouty mum looking back at her, she is going to be shouty back at me.

If I am saying no to her all the time, she is going to say no back at me.

Now, when I see her looking at me, I see behind her eyes.

See her looking at me to understand.

I am my daughter’s reflection.

I’m going to make sure from now on, it is everything she needs it to be.

Mummy and Louisa in Moelfre

No longer a stay at home mum…

Sept 5th 2013

Almost 4 years ago, I had two children under 2 and was a stay at home mum.

This is not something I ever thought I would or could be.

But I felt blessed I could experience their every move in their formative years.

I always had one eye on today. This very day.

When both my babies were at full time school.

I didn’t want to be unemployable after taking 5 years out of my career.

I didn’t want to be scratching around for any job that was in school time hours.

So the twinkle of Baba+Boo starting forming in my eyes.

It was mean to be something small, a slow burner, something I could just do at nights and weekends.

Then when the children were at school, I could really go for it.

My ambition and drive had other ideas.

It decided I would be working harder than I ever thought imaginable.

Being with the children all day, then working until the early hours.

And here I am today.

Sat at MY desk, in MY office working on MY business.

My little successful business that is not so little any more.

With so many wonderful customers making all this possible.

And I am so ready to really ‘go for it’.

Hard to believe that I am no longer a stay at home mum or a work at home mum.

I am now a businesswoman.

Surreal doesn’t even come close.

Ready to really go for it.

Let’s do this.